Never Enough

    I’m definitely guilty of being one of those people who feel like they constantly have to be doing something. I have to be working towards something and doing nothing usually makes me feel guilty - guilty that I should be doing more or working towards something. 

    Lockdown and this year (where spoiler things have not gone to plan šŸ˜…šŸ™‚šŸ¤£) has really forced me to learn to pause and sometimes appreciate doing nothing. To look after myself when it all went wrong. Mainly because if I hadn’t I’m not sure I would have been able to handle it all because I needed time to process. But even so, I’ve often only really taken a breather when it’s got to extreme situations for me. In a world where something is always going on and being productive / doing work seems to be overvalued, I’d really forgotten how to just be. Appreciate that sometimes doing nothing is nice - it’s a way to give your mind a rest and yourself a breather

    For years now, doing nothing has always brought a sense of guilt- that I should be working, doing more to achieve something, that I could be doing better. But when I have done work, I never feel as though I’m doing enough. It’s a lose-lose situation. It’s only recently that I’ve really worked to change that mindset. To stop and appreciate what I have now - to acknowledge that many of the things I have currently is what past me spent lots of time and work in achieving and at points felt completely out of reach. We’ve been taught to constantly reach for the next goal so much that we sometimes forget what we do have and have achieved. 

    So, if like me you’ve lost sight of that, here’s your reminder: be proud of what you’ve achieved and pause before you throw yourself into the next challenge. You deserve it. 

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